Feeling Behind the Times

I often find myself laughing at how much I remind myself of a little old lady. On a Saturday night, you'll find me with a hot chocolate and a good book rather than out on the town. I've been teased a few times about the fact that I'm not a 'going-out' person and it's always kind of bothered me. 

It's hit me recently just how different I am to most people around my age and I found it getting me down for a little bit. I have no 'squad', no nights out etc. After a few months of being a bit miserable and trying to convince myself that I do want to go out, it just hit me that I'm not like that. I'm the kind of person who would prefer to go around Edinburgh looking at historical sights rather than go for a girls holiday in Ibiza and party. That's just me. 

I'm not at all saying that people who do go out and party are below me or that I think I'm superior because I really don't feel that way. My point is that I've convinced myself that I'm weird because I don't do that stuff. Sometimes as I'm scrolling through Facebook, I'll see that people I went to school with have posted photos while they've been out and I get this momentary pang of jealousy. I've never done anything like that before. I've never been out in town with my friends. I've never experienced the room spinning as I lay in bed. And for a second, I manage to convince myself that going out is something I should be doing at my age. I have people tell me all the time how I'm missing out on the best years of my life. But, I don't feel that way. I like my quiet weekends in. And please don't get it twisted, just because I'm not a clubbing gal doesn't mean that Echo Falls Summer Fruits and I aren't best friends. I love to sip on a glass of wine and pure orange juice (my fave combo) every so often. 

I think a big reason why I'm not a huge drinker is that I'd go to the pubs on a weekend with my Grandad or Dad while they played darts. I'd sit near the bar with a Panda Pop and a Pepperami. So the whole idea of drinking wasn't new to me. I'd been to pubs almost all my life. To tell the truth, drunk people are kind of my least favourite people in the world. I'd been allowed a little tipple at family parties or on New Year's Eve so alcohol wasn't this amazing new thing for me. 

I think that the moral of this blog post is that you should embrace who you are and what you like. Don't let other people or yourself convince you to change what you like. If you love a weekend of drinking and kebabs, do that. If you like to watch crime documentaries with a glass of wine, do that too. Allow yourself to enjoy what you love. Have a drink on me and have a lovely day.
Lots of loves,

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